We decided to go ahead and reveal his name. I got tired of telling people we weren't telling and getting disappointed looks. (Originally, I didn't want to tell because I didn't want to hear people's opinions. But people had opinions about us not telling. So, whatever.) John's mom kept calling the baby "Little Cecelio" (her name is Cecelia) and since we had already decided on a name, I preferred him to be called by his name. So... drumroll... his name is River Jeremiah! (Okay, we actually revealed his name about a month ago, but I've been behind on my blog posts.)
It was his name from the beginning. We decided pretty quickly that if he was a boy, his name would be River. Our only hesitation was that a pastor friend of ours has a son named River, but we decided it didn't matter. After we found out he was a boy, as we were leaving the technician's office, John said, "I was thinking, how about we name him River Jeremiah?" It just sounded so beautiful together - River Jeremiah. I had had a hard time trying to come up with a middle name to go with River, because it sounded like the name of a river... River Jordan, River Andrew... nothing clicked with me. But River Jeremiah was so perfect and beautiful. So I thought about it for about a week before I told him yes, River Jeremiah it would be. It seemed so natural to call him River. Now even, it's so sweet to refer to him by his name, and not just "the baby." Our little River!
I'm so glad God answered our prayer about his name. It's a good thing the baby didn't end up being a girl - I'm not sure she would have a name yet! We couldn't agree on anything. But River was definitely what God wants this little baby to be named. It was important to John that our children have names that are meaningful. (For me this was a great idea, but not something I was set on, so I just couldn't understand why he couldn't just like a name because it was a nice sounding name!) People ask if there is any significance to his name, and while there is definitely significance, River is a bit harder to explain because it's so personal for me. One of my favorite passages in the Bible is Isaiah 43:1-4:
"This is what the LORD says— he who created you... he who formed you: 'Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not consume you. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.... you are precious and honored in my sight, and I love you.... Do not be afraid, for I am with you."
I found this verse in January of '06, and it felt as though God was directly saying it to me. I felt he showed it to me for a reason that day. In a very condensed, surface way of explaining things, the symbolism of a river is powerful to me, and reminds me that no matter what the world brings, what I'm going through, God is taking care of me and loves me and I am his child.
And therefore, we have River Jeremiah. My beautiful baby boy.